Dont Cry Edmund

This post is dedicated to A friend who died 13 years ago.. Edmund Quek.. My BVSS classmate who jumped to his death on 19th July 1994, midnight.. This is the 13th year since I last saw him alive...

Dear Edmund,

I can only have memories of you, for you are no longer around, I keep these precious memories close to my heart, always remembering you.. I sometimes wonder what would you be if you are still alive now...

Racing back in time to 13 years ago ,recalling the shocking news I heard about you on the phone, I couldnt believe it until I saw your lifeless body myself. The sight of the packet of chicken rice that was offered to u before where you laid, breaks my heart, the forever loss of a friend, i would not be able to meet or chat with u again.. that feeling is unbearable until now.

I apologise for not replying to your pleas for a listening ear when you needed it, I am very very sorry..sorry.. I cant rid this guilt as long as I am alive. I know its all too late now, but I am really sorry...

Yongkang brought me to Mount Vernon to visit your resting place, we could not locate where were you and we left without saying goodbye to you, The very night I think you sent me a dream, I saw Yongkang & Myself looking around for your slot, I also saw you burning paper in front of your resting place, crying bitterly.. I saw you crying, I wanted to go to you but I cannot find my way to you, you kept crying, I felt terrible.. you just kept crying.. until I woke up.

Please dont cry Edmund, dont be sad, because if you are sad, we will all be very sad too, leave to a place where you find your peace, and we will be happy for you .. Be at peace, we will return again to relocate you very soon.. Dont Cry Edmund..

Love Of A Friend,
Wendy